I am a singer, a songwriter, and a guitarist. But I am so NOT many of the job titles that I try to do in order to do what I do. I'm not a booking agent. I'm not a sound engineer. I'm not a roadie. I'm not a graphic designer. But yet, sometimes, I find myself doing these careers that are NOT my thing and that I have very little talent or skill for. Either because I don't have the budget to hire someone who knows what they're doing, or because it just seems ridiculous to not try to get the job done myself, and because it's hard to ask for help.
And then in the middle of it all, I realize I am insane for thinking I could do it myself.
So the cd that coulda, shoulda, woulda been completed over a year ago is still struggling to get out. And the project I started off loving, is growing into one I'm barely even liking, and getting closer every day to hating.
One day, and hopefully soon, this project will be complete. And hopefully it's one I'll be proud of. And if nothing else, perhaps it will have taught me some lessons that will help me out for "next time".
1 comment:
That which does not kill us makes us stronger. Breathe & lean into that soft side of you that simply loves creating and know this will manifest. I find it hard to remember that there are pieces of joy that I LOVE in the WORK, if I put my attention here it is like a bit of fresh air or a bubble bath
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.
(Mary Oliver)
http://www.geocities.com/Paris/Metro/1170/wildgeese.htm
Love from germany!
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