Sunday, March 29, 2015

10 years ago

(If you just substitute "7 years ago today" with "10 years ago today", the post below, that I wrote in 2012, is still completely accurate.)


7 years ago today.

How can that be?

I remember when Mom died, I worried that I'd forget the sound of her voice over time.  Or get unfamilar with her face.  I thought over time, memories of her would fade.

But I can close my eyes and see her.  I still, exactly, know her face.

And not only can I still hear the sound of her voice, I so often know exactly what she'd say to me about certain things.  I can almost have conversations with her!

And funny little memories, and lots of sweet ones, of her pop up on me all the time.

I remember one of the last things Mom said to me.
She sighed and said, "I should have had you earlier."  Well, I knew what she meant by that.  She meant we should have had more time together.  And we should have. But rather than having me earlier, I just wish she had lived to be a very old little lady.  I know she had me at just the right time.   

Mom gave me a great childhood.  And ultimately, a great life.

I have so many vivid memories- old ones, and more recent ones- of her.
So yes, 7 years.  But the memories haven not faded.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Awww.. I can still picture her sweet smile and laugh. I know she would be so proud of the young women you have become!! I do so miss my sweet wine drinking buddy. xoxo