Friday, February 18, 2011

Lean

This week has been a tough one.  Our beloved poochies, Zoe and Scout, who are both 15 years of age, have been severely under the weather and we began the week with bad news from our vet.  Which I don't even want to talk about here, other than just to say, getting old sucks.  And knowing the days are numbered doesn't bring me joy.
I've just allowed myself to wallow in it all. I haven't gotten much work done.  I haven't cooked but one meal all week.  I haven't read much because I can't focus for long enough to care.  I've just done a lot of laying around with Zoe and Scout.  I haven't worn make up all week, because tears come out of my eyes at both expected and unexpected moments.  My face is just puffy.  Puffy with love for Zoe and Scout.

My husband is just as sad about all of this as I am.  He's loved these girls for 15 years, just as I have.  There is something oddly comforting about sharing sadness with someone you love. 

I am thankful.  So thankful that for now, our girls our resting on their pillows here at home, peacefully.  Thankful that I'm not alone in my sadness, and that I've got someone strong to lean on.
  

16 comments:

Jadyn said...

Kerri, I am SO sorry to hear this. They are gorgeous dogs. It really is devastating when something happens to the animals that we've shared our lives and hearts with. My heart aches after reading your post. Sending love and light your way.

Melissa Sarno said...

I'm sorry to hear this :-( This is so sad. I'm glad you have someone to lean on in these times. I'll be thinking of you and your girls. They are so pretty.

this free bird said...

Oh Kerri I am so very sorry to hear this. I could cry in the corner and all over the house for you. My cats have been with me for 7 or 8 years and I was thinking of this very thing yesterday. Your girls are just beautiful and you are all in my thoughts.

xoxo and mad hugs,
Carrie

Marie a la Mode said...

Kerri, I am so sorry. I had tears welling up in my eyes just reading this. Your pups are gorgeous, gorgeous girls. I'm thinking about you and sending you hugs from Canada.

xoxo

Tina Gilmore said...

hugs for you and your hubby, thinking of you! xx

Lisa said...

Oh Kerri ~ my heart is heavy for you, your husband and your beautiful girls. I can't even bear the thought and you are right - getting old does suck...
Nothing that can be said here is going to bring any comfort for you and I'm just so sorry. Hug them, kiss them, squeeze them and love them.
Hugs for you too...
Lisa

Roberta said...

wow...so sorry for you and your beloved pups...sending hugs and best wishes. xoxo

Suki said...

My thoughts are with you and the girls.
Big hugs to you xxx

Kate MacAndrew said...

Take care Kerri, I went through this with my beloved cat at the end of 2009 - my thoughts are with you and your beautiful girls xxx

Kat Sloma said...

So sorry Kerri! Cuddle up with them as much as possible. The unconditional love from our furred friends cannot be replaced.

soraya nulliah said...

Dear sweet Kerrie-this brings tears to my eyes. How very very sad that both youir dogs are ill. Just spend as much time as you can with them...and keep them comfortable and warm in your love. Sending you all lots of hugs over there xxx

Rob said...

Oh Kerri... sorry to hear. I've been there a couple of times myself. Hurts so much to see a friend and companion like a family pet begin the decline.

Thinking of you two and sending some positive energy your way.

tanglefrost said...

Oh Kerri... so very sad to read this, particularly as we are currently going through similar heartache with our precious retriever, Amber. Holding you and your dear ones so tightly in my thoughts...... hugs Jo xxx

Suzi said...

How are Zoe & Scout doing? I lost my Great Dane after 12 years, it was very hard. One of our new dogs is Sam (a goldendoodle) and was born the day before Duke passed, only weighing 5 oz. I swear he is Duke reincarnated, he does everything that Duke did and is totally my dog. He does not leave my side.
My thoughts and prayers are with you!!!

bobbi said...

you know I understand this soo much. I'm with you. It is so heartbreaking when they leave, but be strong. They are lucky dogs, loved and beautiful. I'm sure they have had the best lives and it's all because of you and your husband. Hugs Kerri.

David said...

I make my living with the language, but that very language is failing me now. "I'm so sorry" barely begins to convey the sorrow I feel in my heart for you, Fermin, and the girls. The others are right: keep loving on them, keep building memories, and know that their spirit will live in your heart forever.